I battled with PCOS ever since I was a chubby teenager. And nothing changed as I grew older. My body has always been curvy and I can easily be labeled a “plus sized” if nothing else.
Growing up, I was always ashamed of my chubbiness and weight. I tried to suck in my cheeks when I went out to emphasize my cheekbones and give the impression that my face wasn’t as round as it seemed. And biggest shame was having a huge bust. I always wore long tees to hide my thighs. I was losing confidence. This battle lasted for a long time, even after my high school years where I was bullied by others and my own self.
Putting myself on restrictions and fad diets was a common occurrence, I would lose weight and then lose track. Going to the gym was never my goal. There were days when I felt low and binge eating episodes would kick in once again. It was only a vicious cycle. Sadly, there was no way out.
Life changed when I joined a marketing firm as a trainee. I made friends who realized my worth. They looked beyond my body and appreciated me for who I was. It was around the same time that I dated my husband, who was a wonderful support and one of the most positive people I have ever met in my life. He encouraged me to quit crazy diet plans and together, we ventured into the world of healthy eating.
Gradually, I realized my body is perfect. I experimented with colors and gave my wardrobe a makeover. Interestingly, I always had a great fashion sense but never put it to use.
I had realized that the key was not to wear clothes that were too short. Shirts that were mid-thigh showed off my curves to advantage while making my legs look tall and slender. I was still curvy and plus sized but I was on the way to loving my own self and my body which was the biggest achievement of my life.
For the first time since I hit puberty, I looked in the mirror with pleasure instead of feeling sad. Having the right clothes in my wardrobe had given me a lot of confidence and positivity. Plus my skincare routine had given my face a new shine and glow. The support of true friends and my husband made me a positive person. This positivity radiated throughout me. I was a different person. I threw out all my old stuff and got myself a new wardrobe including shirts, skirts, and dresses in my favorite colors.
Today, I am still plus sized but it hasn’t gotten the better of me. Here’s my mantra.
- I am a healthier and happier person.
- I love my body
- I am proud of the way clothes look on me.
- I rock my curves.
- I still carry myself with style.
- I also rock flared sleeves which makes my arms look more toned.
Being plus sized has made me love and appreciate my body. I am thankful that I stopped bullying myself and realized that self-worth comes from within. Outside appearances don’t matter. It is the person you are inside who shines through and lights up your world. Remember, a beautiful face with an unhappy heart is not what you would want. A happy person with a beautiful personality will always shine on every occasion. So it is the inner beauty which truly matters.
I am thankful that I realized that in time and could get rid of my insecurities and discontentment, making me a truly happier person inside and out. I am also grateful to the people who helped me realize my self-worth and who made me love myself before it was too late. Remember, every person can look beautiful and size really doesn’t matter.
So what are you waiting for? Give your closet a makeover. Get tees, tanks, print dresses, skirts, jackets, shoes, and accessories you love. Here’s a friendly reminder. Don’t feel shy to experiment. Remember that you are awesome!
Zyana Morris is a passionate blogger who loves to write about prevailing trends. She is a featured author at various authoritative blogs in the fashion and lifestyle industry and currently working for Offer Factor, an online shopping for Men’s and women’s Apparel, you can follow her on Twitter and Facebook for more of her work.